Joc de l´any

算命先生“我在银座”的占卜结果。
XXX，有这样的趋势。

+ 有着和其他人不同的性格
+ 爱流泪
+ 很难察觉别人对自己的看法
+ 小的地方容易努力
+ 甘于寂寞
+ 要强
+ 老实


特别是XXX，有这样的趋势。

・会不爽那些跟不上周围人拍子的人
・从不好好吃早饭
・很健忘
・算是被动性的人吧
・看到那些任性的人就会变得悲伤

XXX从我的意见。

・别在别人面前流泪

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親愛的，我不是你，我沒有你這樣地shameless

西班牙与中国的关系于我仿佛间如前世今生，像是前世记忆仍未被全部消除的灵魂，突然被告知你的这一轮回即将发生在西班牙。

你拥有关于中国那些模糊的记忆，但似乎已经不记得家附近小巷那种熟悉的豆浆油条的味道，那家你常去的酒吧有你熟悉的人，那个时常在擦杯子的酒保的样子，或者是火车上人群拥挤的有气味混杂的那一节车厢，你曾经度过无数夜晚的床，深夜回家时的宁静但伴有小贩叫卖烧烤的街道，出租车司机的腔调，你离开前与朋友最后的一次聚会，诉说着你们以后要如何如何地发展自己的前途，那些话语，那些年华。那些曾经熟悉的时光被扯开光年以外，在记忆混杂的混沌中， 你必须找到自己今生所能生存的方向，于是你仿佛婴儿一般嗷嗷牙语，不断重复自己从中得到自己想要的。

深夜时分会点起烟，缭绕中不时有记忆如电影片断般闪过。只是你回头发现那些都不真实，你身在西班牙，突然他们的笑脸，那个有独立能力爱笑爱哭有工作有朋友有家人有爱人的人，对，前世的你，转眼不见，现在，你的生活在这里，你的今生，在西班牙。混沌中你不断调适，障碍究竟是什么，你无法与任何人说明，不是语言，不是气候，更不是所谓的时差，你只是觉得缺失，那种欠缺旁人在身边的恐惧，惧怕自由落体前没有别人，或者说爱你的人在地面告诉你，即便你掉落，我们亦在地面，所以你不必惧怕。或者是那种欠缺众人的繁华，你害怕在你时光最繁华的时候，在聚光灯打在你身上的时候，没有你在乎的人的鼓掌。你害怕你终将一个人庆祝，一个人落幕，同时与前世记忆相互依存，再也不能拥有独立的视野。

过去的，并不是过去，你就像是一辆巨大的巴士，十岁的你，二十岁的你，三十岁的你……所有阶段的你，一个挨一个地在车上连成直线，没有过去可以遗漏，他们，都在那里不停地提醒，或者告诉你以后应该怎么行走，现在的你是司机，要开向那里，只有现在的你可以决定，是要不断在十年前，一年前的地点徘徊，还是要继续往前行驶到达你未知的地方，带同你的前世今生。

今天在巴塞羅那cosmo caixa展覽聼購買的4M pinhole camera是給8嵗以上的孩子的DIY相機。沒有鏡頭，沒有濾鏡等等繁複的設計，就只是一個最簡單的相機。以下為手作過程。

1，拆封

2，利用鋁箔，雙面膠，大頭針製作針孔鏡頭

3，將彈簧放置于快門，裝上鏡頭

4，機身合體

5，機背扣環

6，將卷片軸，倒片軸放在機身中

7，大合體，完成！！撒花。。。

 什麽是針孔相機？--資料來源wiki

A pinhole camera is a very simple camera with no lens and a single very small aperture. Simply explained, it is a light-proof box with a small hole in one side. Light from a scene passes through this single point and projects an inverted image on the opposite side of the box. Cameras using small apertures and the human eye in bright light both act like a pinhole camera.

Up to a certain point the smaller the hole, the sharper the image, but the dimmer the projected image. Optimally, the size of the aperture should be 1/100 or less of the distance between it and the screen.

A pinhole camera's shutter is usually manually operated because of the lengthy exposure times, and consists of a flap of some light-proof material to cover and uncover the pinhole. Typical exposures range from 5 seconds to hours and sometimes days.

A common use of the pinhole camera is to capture the movement of the sun over a long period of time. This type of photography is called Solargraphy.

The image may be projected onto a translucent screen for real-time viewing (popular for observing solar eclipses; see also camera obscura), or can expose film or a charge coupled device (CCD). Pinhole cameras with CCDs are often used for surveillance because they are difficult to detect.

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so i thought it was an end,but not really.i mean what ya gonna say abt it?the histories,the karmas,the stuffs,the blah blah blah blah blah...

where do the other people find so much words to say?sometimes i just try to remain silent,cuz i think it-s the best way out,but it doesnt mean i dont care or i cant feel the anger or what so ever it is that i suppose to feel...damn,maybe i am just bad at expressin myself in a way or another,hell man,i just wish i can find a freakin real person who can understand me,the real me,not the one i am or was tryin to be...

get it?

現在的李心潔只演電影，恐怖電影。

今天打開youtube的時候見到李心潔的名字，恍然想起原來中學的時候，最愛的是李心潔的“裙摆摇摇”。上學或放學的路上一直在耳邊轟然播放。喜歡她和張震岳的合作，還有她cd封面的那條小花裙。今天看見她的mv，原來我還是比較喜歡她歌唱得樣子。

用尽一切精力，花费半年的时间，终于生活在西班牙。

去过法国，意大利，看过麦当娜的演唱会，见过这样那样的国际盛会，派对还有演出。

但始终不能像以前所希望地一样生活，始终有种族的歧视，始终没有真正的朋友，我希望这一切不会是一场异常昂贵华而不实的梦。

I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don't care about clever I don’t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and f@#kloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them

I'll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
'Cuz everyone knows that's how you get famous
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track yeah I'm on to a winner
Lily Allen Lyrics on www.lyrics-celebrities.anekatips.com

Chorus
I don't know what’s right and what's real anymore
I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
'Cuz I'm being taken over by The Fear

Life's about film stars and less about mothers
It's all about fast cars and passing each other
But it doesn't matter cause I’m packing plastic
and that's what makes my life so f@#king fantastic

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
and its not my fault it's how I'm program to function
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track yeah I'm on to a winner

Chorus
I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
I don't know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
'Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear

Bridge
Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I'm killing them all on my own little mission
Now I'm not a saint but I'm not a sinner
Now everything is cool as long as I'm getting thinner

Chorus
I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
'Cause I'm being taken over by fear

well,love her accent,the lyric,she's pretty...all that's pretty much abt it..

This man who seems so normal in a daily life just walked into my life and change it,in a good way of course.

for the last 18months dreams had came true...one by one,little by little,madonna's concert,livin in a different place,or even travel to france,italy,or just simply walk through the beach in a windy day.....

they all came true....without him,they wont be...

te amo..si puedo quiero vivo siempre contigo...

i believe alot ppl has hear of joanna wang,me myself not exactly a fan of hers but this song does touched the softest part of my heart a bit.a cover for the old 1982 song by don mclean took place in a beautiful sea side in europe,when i looked into her eyes while she sings, somehow there was a heartache like i just found the long gone soul or whatever i loved before,so many nites i listen to her and almost cry in tears.

a song delicated to our beloved vincent van gogh

sorry the pics are so blur..nokia never takes good pics in the night mode..but yes indeed,i am getting crazy about these babies..

love how they stop the times...

What would you do if you only had 72 hours to live?

3 dias（3日，西班牙名）或者是 before the fall。講述太陽風暴來臨前的72小時，中國，俄羅斯，美國政府宣佈無力挽回形勢以後，ale還有他的母親以及侄子們的故事。

故事像一般大片一樣有不少的電腦特景，洶湧的群衆演員。但是，必須值得一提的是Rosa(母親一角，本名mariana cordero）以及ale（男主角，本名victor clavijo）的表演在我來説是很出人意料的。尤其當Rosa得知當年的殺人犯Lucio已經趁著監獄暴動離開，得知他一定不會放過她兒子的家后時不斷向人們求助，甚至這樣無所畏懼地打開那扇教堂的門的時候，我看見的，的的確確是一個母親，一個會抱著必死決心保護家人的母親。

當ale在母親死後，極力保護孩子們那種暴躁但包裹無比溫柔内心的命令或者是呐喊，讓我心生溫暖。他把這樣一個童年有陰影的，黑暗但同時帶有光明的角色演得入木三分。

電影場景鋪陳地很好，就像是西班牙根本的生活，幽暗的咖啡店，老年男子玩橋牌，再普通不過的一杯咖啡，天氣炎熱的郊外，低矮的樓房。西班牙的南部就應該是這樣的。人口不多，你認識我，我認識他。鏡頭拍得很美。各種光線導演都運用自如。很難讓人相信這部片子竟然出自西班牙而不是美國好萊塢。

最喜歡的場景是最後的兩分鐘，ale向暗戀多年的已經與他人懷孕的女子告白並且親吻后，隔日她開著那輛有些老舊的車子到ale的家。二人四目相投，輕輕地說互道你好。話音剛落，隕石從天而降，所有是非往事前塵，所有宇宙生命化爲灰燼。隕石閃耀有落日的光輝，他們二人始終這樣愛慕地看著彼此。就像是給我們這些内心蒼老的人的一部童話。這樣地美。

不知道這部片子在中國能不能看到。是一部蠻商業化的電影，可是，有那麽一刻，我為他們微笑。

What about it? Another new year, another day full of hopes and shits. Days gone by so far I am still alive like any other years in the past.

So, lovers and suckers, sons and fathers, fuckers and low lifes, angels and devils, they all start hoping and smiling again in the 1^st moment of the bell ringing, singing, dancing, hugging, kissing…

Raise your cups and say cheers cuz nothing lasts forever, so drink it down, laugh it out, and say it out loud. ¨Salud señor, feliz año¨ ¨salut l´amor¨¨salud cariño¨

And you know it’s the 1^st time you’re out of home, celebrating how the time flies while you are here thousand miles away from the families that love you the most. Then you dance till dawn, smiling and remain smiling keep telling yourself it’s gonna be alright. It’s gonna be just alright.

Good bye my dear 2008, it was a year that full of craziness and choices and Hes or Shes. Good bye those weird weird dreams which I kept killing myself in the bed or kept wondering in the corridor looking for a person who left me real long time ago.

Viva la vida, la vida vive.

 So, bury all that has happened, move on, smile and learn to forget and forgive.

And I am still living for the Romanticism.

Will those feet in modern times
Walk on soles that are made in China?
Feel the bright prosaic malls
In the corridors that go on and on and on

Are we blind - can we see?
We are one - incomplete
Are we blind - In the shade
Waiting for lightning - to be saved
Cause love is noise and love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again
Love is noise and love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again, again

Will those feet in modern times
Understand this world's affliction
Recognise the righteous anger
Understand this world's addiction?

I was blind - couldn't see
What was here in me
I was blind - insecure
I felt like the road was way too long, yeah
Cause love is noise and love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again
Love is noise and love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again
Love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm feeling again
Love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again, again, again, again, again, again

Cause love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that you're feeling again
Love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again, again, again


Will those feet in modern times
Walk on soles made in China?
Will those feet in modern times
See the bright prosaic malls?
Will those feet in modern times
Recognise the heavy burden
Will those feet in modern times
Pardon me for my sins
Love is noise
Come on

<Vicky Christina Barcelona>

Yes, it’s a very commercial movie. Yes, it’s nothing but a corny movie. Yes, the girls in the movie have done nothing but just being pretty.But somehow I’ve seen something about love.

Vicky and Christina should be a combination for all the girls, they wanted parties, romances and sexual attractions when they are at the teens or 20s.And later when they find out what a relationship could damage their hearts they become serious, they think fancy guys are just for looking or what so ever its about. They got married, living the life that they always wanted to have, like the fairytale living happily ever after.

Juan Antonio, I have to say, like most of the average BCN guys, u just have to give them one day, just one day, you’ll be totally in love with them inside out. They are the sweetest talker; they are arty giving you all kinds of illusions about how they are the prince. About how you will be his world, how you will be the one and the last one. They are sexy, tempting and full of lusts like the snakes in the gardens. They can give you the longest kiss in your life then you might feel flew a little bit.

The whole movie doesn’t have much highlights just kinda make me wonder what if the ex of Juan didn’t came into the house that day when Vicky the woman who’s already married went to meet Juan when they were so suppose to kiss each other and maybe the 2^nd sex they might actually going to have. Is she going to give up all she has in NY and move in with Juan and Maria like Christina done?  Or is she going to say no when the sex was so should be started?

I wish it has another ending, or maybe it’s already a good ending for Vicky?

She’s married, and it was so forbidden that she still want that piece of cake that made in heaven. So she went away with it. So she pretend that he never went into her, so she remain quiet about that starry starry night, so she claim to the world dough is the one, so she was scared.

Yeah, what about love? It only stays in our heart maybe Vicky will never forget what happen in Spain, maybe Juan will always stays but in silences.

So, dough is happy, so Vicky has her own life just like she thought, happily ever after.

安，

你好，最近生活應該就是你一直想像甚或一直努力刻畫得樣子吧。請替我和你的寶貝問好。

曾經給你寫過一封信，内容亦是清淡，或許是沒有運氣得到回復。所以亦一直保留心意，希望留有一絲的神秘。從告別薇安一直到素年錦時。匆匆數年。與你的感受，或者是思維一起進步。慢慢地，好像你便是我，我便是你。或者說，應該是你書中的人或事。

你書中的人総有強大的内心，即便失落，喪失一切，他們仍然能以自己所需要的方式完成自我。這或許也是每一個人都想要的，來自于内心的解脫。

素年錦時是喜歡的一本。讀完以後，知曉時間已經在你的心上留下痕跡，讓你成爲那個内心質樸，心存感激，溫柔婉轉的女子。尤其是最後的一篇。寫的或許就是一份懷孕后的一份心情吧。只是最後，我的孩子並沒有繼續存活的運氣。孩子是光。如你所說的。所以，我的内心灰暗。

對於人或事，與書中的很多女子，并不心存僥幸，只是一切應該歸于宿命，倘若是遇上歡喜的人，應該珍惜，好好保存置於心底。世間雑像太多，人心蠱惑。要一直堅強地走下去，才能最終與歡喜的人笑著看世間荒蕪。

薔薇島嶼亦是讓我心存感動的書。因爲，是寫給父親的書。未成年以前，一直與父親爭吵，讀后許多年，又一次翻開，突然讓我獨自内省。於是給父親寫了一封信，把許多許多的怨氣甚或是懊惱如盆托出，以致后來父親的回信讓我淚流滿面。仿佛是最終的一場大雨，讓所有所有的晦氣清洗一遍，然後便是晴朗的天氣，讓人内心溫暖，亦了解原來簡單才是糾結的出路。如果時間可以重來，相信你也會和我一樣地去解決吧。

安妮，給你寫的這封信，只是想感激你一直讓你的感觸、對生命的理解、對情愛的態度或者是對親人的不捨寫給我們看，於是我們感同身受，與你一起感嘆世事無常，倘若如能共同觀看一場焰火便是從前修到的福氣。於是我們抱著 這樣的心情一直地笑著哭著走下去。

謝謝你。如此，我們亦會同你一般，心存感激地看世間蒼老。

我很好，請代問候安藍一般的朋友。

保重。

一直這樣，想象與自己的對話。仿佛一直是空的，或是滿的。

淩晨的時候，會為自己點燃香火，在煙霧繚繞中面目平靜，告訴自己，一切都會好的，一切都會最終歸于平靜，一切都會好的。

那現在呢？另外的我不斷詢問。

我不知道，只是不想面對太多的現實罷了。再過一段時間再説。再等等，或許，會有好的出路的，嗯。

什麽出路？會有嗎？所有這些，你覺得是可行的嗎？

我不知道，只是一個人的時候，會覺得可怕，會覺得孤單，所以也沒有力氣或想法能讓自己有更理想甚或可行的方法，仿佛就可以這樣，不被理解地，不擅長表達地一再走下去。

是這樣的嗎？

嗯，是啊。就這樣一直自言自語，盲目愚昧地走下去。不需要誰來了解，或不需要刻意討好任何人，這樣很好。所以我一直可以沒有顧慮，旁若無人地做自己的事，儘管還是有很多人一直投以異樣的眼光，或一直好奇地發問。

嗯，可是儘管有很多很多的人一直不能理解也能一直堅持下去？

可以吧，我也不清楚。只是有的時候會很孤立而已，只是有的時候會很失望而以。還好吧。

哦，原來你是這樣的人啊？

也許吧，我也常常懷疑自己……

不止一次地想逃离那个残酷又让人热爱的国境。却从没想过目的地会是这个遥远陌生的欧洲小国。

这里生活庸懒有自成一格的作息时间，蓝得透光的天空以及那些我不曾理解的语言。有幸游览过那些历史繁华的欧洲城市却看似不真实，仿佛一切都是幻觉重生。像是在睡梦中一直重演那些繁华的，一绽即逝的烟火，没有起止不知年时。有绚烂的光影却一直清醒对峙。

繁华中想起那些人与事仿佛已成历史，一瞬间被扯开几亿兆的光年，来不及想起已经忘却在身边车流轰鸣声中。于是抬起头，看见飞鸟以一种极端自由的姿态滑过，你知道，你身处异境，并尝试一遍又一遍地练习语言的发音，第一千零八次的失败。身后有壮硕树影，叹息无人知晓如此美好年华，只得自己一次一次敲响键盘，让一切静止停留于白色的平淡的画面上。

在这样的时刻，地球那边的人都在做着什么，亲吻着，爱着，抱怨着，留恋着，胶着着，或许与我一样费力地想记录下什么却缺乏灵感与事件，一遍一遍地，敲入，删除。重复地表达，但努力堆砌之后觉得虚无甚或寂寞。或许有一样的企望，到达异国，寻找一直在梦境升起又降落无数次的烟火。或许只是平静面对自己，面对内心的滔滔大海，尝试进入那些的暂时逃离。或许在黑暗中寻找那只曾经熟息的手因此可以安静入睡。或许对月吟唱。或许与朋友买醉一次又一次地上演把酒吟欢，乐此不疲。

常常就這樣，仿佛可以在人群中喪失言語，沒有表情地生活下去。不需要你的讚美，不需要繁華的過場。然後漸漸忘記，沉入水底，寧靜思考。讓過去的都不再浮現，一切終止，或消失。時常想起的，是那裏午後沉悶的雷響，傾盆的大雨。他已經變白的發綫，曾經這樣溫柔地交換彼此感情，小心保存。寧靜夜晚裏，看見自己妝容嬌妖地一遍一遍赴會。舞池裏近乎狂熱地舞蹈，仿佛無人介意一般。玻璃杯被敲響的聲音。

九月，與你一起去看一場煙火。街道人群洶湧，有孩子嬉笑的聲音。

煙火響聲轟隆，火花四散，升起，而後降落。不斷升降中，我雙手合十，一直祈禱那些未來的日子可以安寧。